Jumbled Thoughts

I know I haven't posted much lately, but after my series on decisions I had to take a step back and evaluate.  Now that I have done that, do you think I know any more than I did?  Or that I have made any decisions regarding what all I poured out into my blog?  Or that all the thoughts running through my head are any more clear than they were?  Let me answer that for you...HELL NO!!!  But really that's ok.  It will all play itself out in time, which is fine with me.  I'm not in any rush at the moment and would rather things move relatively slow, so the best possible decisions can be made. 

Having said all that and getting it out of the way, I have so many thoughts on so many subjects running through my head.  Yet it is all jumbled up and I can't quite figure out how to get it sorted into viable posts at the moment.  It's like your favorite songs being played on the piano over and over again by a beautiful naked woman.  One distracts you from the other, and you have trouble concentrating on either.  OK...OK...we all know I'd be concentrating on the beautiful naked woman, but that's not the point.  I'm just having trouble at the moment organizing my thoughts into coherent subjects I can write about.  I can't stay concentrated on one thing long enough to get it sorted and down on paper.

I was chatting last Friday with one of my readers.  It was asked why I don't have a sub currently?  And told that I would make a great Dom for someone.  Well, if you go back and read some of my older posts, the question can be answered, which relates to the whole "Decisions" subject.  As for me being a good Dom for someone...well, in my jumbled mind, although this truly flattered me, I couldn't come up with good reasons why I would be good for someone, at least at the moment.  I couldn't make good clear sense of it.  Then it came to me!  Nothing about me has changed.  Nothing is different.  I'm the same as I was a few weeks ago.  I've just had a ton of other things on my mind.  I'm not the perfect Dom for everyone.  Never claimed to be!  But for someone...someone that fits into the mold of needing what I have to offer, and their submissiveness fits into what I need them to be, then yes, I would be a good Dom for that person.  Everyone does not fit what everyone else needs.  That's why we are all so different.  That's what makes the world go around...our differences.  When the time is right, and the stars are lined up, I will find that person, that sub, again. 

In the mean time I'll keep dreaming of what may be someday.  I'll keep fantasizing about whoever it is I want to fantasize about at the moment.  I'll keep thinking up new ways to push the limits menatlly, emotionally and physically of a submissive, based on certain criteria.  I'll keep thinking up new things I can do to her to test her submissiveness, and see how far she can go.  I'll keep thinking of new ways to be slow, easy, and passionate, yet still show my Dominance.  It's a never ending process, even when you're alone.  The mind is always turning and in search of new scenes and activities. 

As for today...Today sounds like a good day to be with a naughty, bad school girl!  One that needs some attention and direction to get her back in line.  One that needs a firm hand to show her the err of her ways.  Yep, she needs a spanking soooo bad, and well...I need to give her one.  What?  What did you say?  I'm a dirty old man?!?!  You shut-up!  This is my post and my fantasy!  She's in college and over 18, so leave me alone!!!!  I'll spank her if I want to.  And, since it's my fantasy, I can guarantee you she'll like it and be begging for more as well.  LOL!  She might even call me "Daddy".  I haven't decided on that part yet!  :)